February 2014

Hva i helvete er det du gjør, Raven?

25. february 2014 at 22:43
There is a Dane, a Swede, a Finn, Belgian and two Czechs at the same table... oh, this is not a joke, it's one of my funny stories. Well, maybe next time.

Some things have changed.
I'm not going to the Oxford in three weeks. (I'm gonna work in café instead of M. during that time. Maybe.)
I'm going to Denmark and Sweden in the summer.
And I'm gonna send one or two of my stories to the competition. A big one. (Probably stupid, very stupid idea.)

Hopefully it will not end in disaster. (Please, anything but that.)
So wish me luck. :)

Ingen overraskelse

19. february 2014 at 2:03
Do you guys know what really, really sucks?
When you fall in love and after break up you realised you didn't leave a single thing in that person - that they don't give a single fuck about you, or what happened.
Or when some new friend of yours get drunk and wasted and during that time he started to tell awful, heart-breaking and humiliating things about you (+ to you), and next day he doesn't even remember he did that to you, and you can't even tell him, because now he is boyfriend of your best friend... urgh.
It's sad.
Why am I so unlucky?
Fuck this.

But I have to say that I'm doing quite well... I'm trying to live as much as possible now. It's hard because my whole body hurts and my mind is quite a mess, and I still don't know if I'm okay, but I'm not going back to hospital anymore. I rather stay alone in my bed with cancer and voices in my head, surrounded by my monsters, but I'm never gonna back to hospital again.
You gotta die of something sometimes anyway.

So I'm still smoking, still drinking vodka and I'm going back home at 7AM, not always sleep in my place or my bed, not always alone... it's kind of magical, to see the world at this time of day. Trams are empty, lights are off and the sky is grey-coloured with a touch of blue... it's nice.
And I have one funny story from my favourite gay-club! Just few days later I found this, and I was laughing so hard I could barely breathe.